Slow down, hard work ahead.
It’s New Year’s Day and I am thinking about the road ahead, like many people. However, I’ve been preparing for that road for a while now, so maybe I have a head start. I’d like to think I do, but given there’s no real end to things it may not make a bit of difference. So what does the road ahead entail? Kindness — that’s my battle cry.
Stephen realized the impact our separation had on my immediate family recently in a conversation we had about it. He’s planned on how to repair and move forward in a productive way for him and I applauded that.
However, that raises the possibility for repairs needed with his family, those members he is open with about things personal to him. Given that his closest sister was an advocate for him being out of the relationship with me, is there repair needed there? I don’t know; something to ponder. What I did by leaving him was done at his request. I don’t know if there’s anything I should do except to leave that as a decision I made in kindness and not look back with the “what if” or “what else” perspective. I’ve made the best peace I can with the other members of his immediate family.
No one said this road would be easy. There’s continuous road work ahead and no end of construction season. As pot holes and break downs happening along the way — I will deal with them. No advanced work can be done for something unexpectedly requiring repair.
Get comfortable with being uncomfortable, best I can do.
The girl who mistook her chair as a pulpit for the soles of her shoes 